JUNE 20...

i love you but i dont know where to stand. i want to bring back all our memories, but i guess its too late. we shared memories that are incomparable. now, all i can do is watch you love someone. someone that can give you what you really want. someone that you can truly love. let me tell you these, loving you was incredibly fun and being with you makes me feel that im not alone. you were always there when i needed you. now, i dont know where to start forgetting about you. i dont even know if i will be able to. your text messages that i always read, our pictures that i always look at, your songs that i always listen to. now tell me how can i really forget someone like you? i guess the reason why this happened to us is because my love was not enough. though i know that i really love you deep inside. i fell inlove with you so hard and i dont know why.


there were nights that i suddenly remember you and all i can do is cry. mornings that are not complete without you greeting me, "good morning babe :)". i wanna stop, but i dont know how. if only someone could teach me how to forget a person you really love.


now, i guess this is the best time to pick up myself and stand up again. i know you're always there, and thats it. i dont wanna expect, im tired of being hurt. thank you for everything. thank you for sharing your life with me and thank you for making me feel that im special somehow.




PS. today is June 20, same date you first said "i love you" last APRIL 20. :) i hope you still remember.

drive my soul. :*

Seems somebody put out the moon

Now the road is a minefield

I can't follow the way he moves

I can't see past the shadows

You make the darkness disappear

I feel found when you stay near

I know where I am when you are here

My way becomes so clear

When you are gone

Will I lose control?

You are the only road I know

You show me where to go

Who will drive my soul?

Seems somebody burned out the signs

I can't expect the hard curves

There is no borders

There are no lines

How can I know where to turn?

You make the street lights reappear

I feel bright when you stand near

I know what I am when you are here

My place becomes so clear

When you are gone

Will I lose control?

You're the only road I know

You show me where to go

Who will drive me soul?

Will I lose control?

You're the only road that I know

You show me where to go

Who will drive my soul?

Drive my soul

When you're gone

Will I lose control?

You're the only road I know

You show me where to go

When you're gone

Will I lose control?

You're the only road I know

You show me where to go

Who will drive my soul?

BLACKBERRY STORM. :)

ohhh yes. :) love. :* 

TUESDAY break. :)

this was last last week, tuesday. it was our four hours break, so me, Kit, and ceej decided to go to Kit's place and have a drink. hmmm. i got tipsy. hahahaha. :)) here's what we drank. :D

Kit cooked his specialty, "Tuna Rice". :)

PLUS! we also drank,  The Bar with orange Tea. :))

because I MISS YOU. :(

"Almost"

[Verse 1]

Can you tell me

How can one miss what she's never had

How could I reminisce when there is no past

How could I have memories of being happy with you boy

Could someone tell me how can this be

How could my mind pull up incidents

Recall dates and times that never happened

How could we celebrate a love that's to late

And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

[Chorus]

I missed the times that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there

I miss the times that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take my time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had

Never almost had you

[Verse 2]

I cannot believe I let you go

Or what I should say I should've grabbed you up and never let you go

I should've went out with you

I should've made you my boo boy

Yes that's one time I should've broke the rules

I should've went on a date

Should've found a way to escape

Should've turned a almost into

If it happened now its to late

How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real

And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

[Chorus]

I missed the times that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there

I miss the times that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take my time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had

Never almost had you

[Verse 3]

(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)

And you seem to be the perfect one for me

You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)

You're all that I ever wanted

And you're my everything yes its true

Boy its hard to be close to you

My love

I know it may sound crazy

But I'm in love with you

[Chorus]

I missed the times that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there

I miss the times that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take my time and reminisce

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had

Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared

I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)

I miss the times that we use to kiss

At least in my dreams

Just let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)

I miss the times that we never had

What happened to us we were almost there

Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had

Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOTEE!

ngayon ay birthday ni TOTEE, itong babaeng to, hindi ko malaman kung bakit hanggang ngayon wala pang boyfriend. nagkaroon na ang lahat siya wala parin. well, nagkaroon naman siya, si M na chimoy, bwisit na bwisit talaga ako dun sa lalaking yun. pano kasi ang chimoy, tapos ang itsura, nakakasar. ang haba na malapad ang mukha niya, parang pader lang. :)) enough of him. sunod ay si A, okay naman si A, kaya lang, sobrang inosente. ewan ko ba. sinakop na ata nun lahat ng pagkainosente sa mundo. :)) hahaha. ang susunod ay si F. si F, okay yun. nagkakasundo kami ng lalaking yun. :)) okay na sana, may oto, mayaman, aba naman, kapag nagsama sila ni TOTEE, para silang magtatay. :))  alam mo naman si TOTEE, wala na ngang lalaki, choosy pa ang bruha. ayan kaya ngayon, walang lovelife si gaga. :))  marami ng lalaki ang na-link dito. :)) nandyan si MR. MVP, MR. HUSBAND MATERIAL, at si MR KABABATA. sa tatlong yun, wala siyang naging boyfriend diyan, hahaha. ang hina mo TOTEE! :)) pero wag ka, ang daming lalaki ang nagagandahan sa katawan niya, ewan ko kung ASAN BANDA YUNG MAGANDA SA KATAWAN NIYA. :)) hahahaha.

tama na sa lovelife. sa buhay babae naman ni TOTEE tayo magpunta. :)

simple lang ang buhay nitong babaeng to. kung may pera, lalabas kami. kung wala, LALABAS parin. :)) at libre ko. anak ng! :)) hahaha. walang ka-arte arte sa buhay to. hindi tulad ko, kailangan kapag aalis kami, kailanagan naka-make-up pa ko, siya, hindi, PULBOS lang, SOLVE na. :)) kahit sa pagkain, kahit ano kinakain niyan, kaya tignan mo tiyan niyan ang LAKI. :)) minsan kapag wala kaming magawa, pupunta dito sa bahay yan, kakain kami, sabay nood ng movie. minsan naman pupunta lang siya dito para manghiram ng nail polish. :)) minsan naman, wala lang, may ichchika lang siya sakin. kung magtataka kayo kung bakit kailangan pang pumunta sa bahay ko at hindi nalang niya itext, pasensya kayo, WALA SIYANG LOAD LAGI. :)) lagi kaming nagkakasundo nito, lalo na sa panlalait. :)) hahaha. halos sa lahat nagkakasundo kami. 

ngayon, ikkwento ko ang pagkakaibigan namin.

well, parehas kami ng school dati, grade 3 ako, grade 6 ata siya nun. hindi kami magkaibigan dati, jusko, LAGI KAMI NAGAAWAY DATI. nagmumurahan pa kami niyan. tawag niya sakin dati "LABANOS". at ako naman, "NEGRA". :))  ahaha. naging close kami magsimula nung lumipat sila sa tapat ng bahay namin. dun na nagstart ang magulo at masaya na pagkakaibigan namin. :)) lagi na kaming nagbbonding. :)) hanggang nagyon, sobrang close na kami. :) saya diba. minsan nagaaway kami niyan, pero isang araw palang ang nakakalipas, bati na kami. hahaha. kapag pinagsama mo kaming dalawa, wala na, murahan diyan, batukan dun, kwento dun, kwento dito. lait dun. lait dito. hahahaha. ganun lang kami. minsan may iyakan na nagaganap. minsan may asaran. lalo na kapag magkasama kami tapos may pasok, asahan mo, hindi na kami papasok. :)) 

so, TOTEE, ngayong at matanda ka na, sana naman magkaboyfriend ka na. :)) SANA LANG. at kelan ang celebration, ano yan, naka-nganga lang kami. hindi pwede yan. DABAR NA! =)) o kaya pa-ice cream ka naman. :)) hahahaha

TOTEE, basta lagi mong tatandaan na nandito lang ako lagi para sayo. alam mo naman na yan. nasabi ko na lahat sayo yan. :) 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! love you!